Sometimes I choose to sit quietly and let things sink in.
Sometimes I shout with my loudest voice hoping you will hear me.
Looking at you, I can say we are from parallel universes.
It is not I but you who evidently does not belong.
Your peculiar character leaves me mesmerized for a prolonged period.
I try my best to solve the mystery, decipher the code, and equate the equation.
This is done to no avail as I am still left in a wondering situation.
I take a step closer each passing day hoping to meet your gaze.
I laugh ten times louder hoping to get your attention.
I run a thousand miles more hoping to reach your pace.
The day comes.
The day I get the chance to make myself known to you.
The day I finally place all the puzzle pieces in their rightful place.
The day all my wondering will be a thing of the past.
I slowly unveil the white cloth to reveal this peculiar creature before me.
I am left in awe as I am standing before my own reflection.
Hello. Well it seems like the most appropriate thing to say as we know little to nothing about each other. It has been quite a while since i wrote anything “tangible enough” to actually be published. Maybe i can blame school and say the assignments and tests and studying have been keeping me occupied. This is nothing but a pure lie as i have so much free time to do things i consider to be important.
You are probably wondering what the main purpose of me writing this is. Well i myself do not know either.
You are still reading and are still wondering where on earth i’m driving to. First of all, thank you for being faithful to this point. Stay with me as i write to you my next letter with hope that you will fully understand what my message for you is today.
Like i said before, there is no purpose in writing this. At a second thought, there is. You see, life has taught me that there are times when you have no idea what your purpose is. Just like this letter for instance, you kept on reading with full anticipation that you will reach a point that you will fully understand. To me, i can say that’s the beauty of it. Don’t you think it would be boring if we knew exactly why things happen as they should? I think being kept in some sort of suspense is good for the soul, mind and general well being of every human being.
Wear that short sleeved tank top with furry boots and carry that umbrella. Why? Because it looks like tomorrow will be sunny with a chance of rain and a temperature of minus 0 degrees.
It has been a while really since I actually wrote or rather “created” on this blog. Again, I will let my words take me where ever they may wish. I will let myself be a vessel that actually brings them to life. Since I was little, I’ve always been this “bookworm” and I have let this become a habit that has proven useful on so many occasions. My bookworm “condition” has allowed me to be exposed to different writers and have a chance to really admire their way of doing things. Not every one is the same and as such, you can’t really say one writer is the same as another although some similarities can be identified. Change of topic (as I said l, I’m really open to wherever my words choose to take me). We are still in the first month of the new year and this once I will allow myself to fall under the whole “new years resolution” making category.
First of all, I really want to have a deeper understanding on different characters of the bible. I want to be able to actually understand their character and the reason they did certain things or behaved in certain ways. I know this will require a lot of reading but I will let my inner bookworm radiate. I have been in a shallow state for too long,its high time I got deep on these things.
Another area I’d really need to work on would be my organisational skills. I have been trying really, I have. It even comes into writing whereby I find myself being told to focus on one particular area but due to the unorganisationess, I find myself writing about cats one day and clouds the next. To a certain extent I can say it can be seen as an advantage as it allows me to be flexible and hence the ability to write about any other topic. So in as much as I will try to get more organised, I won’t overdo it because it adds on to my creativity. In my own words, I can say I am “creatively disorganised”.
For now, I will end on two(one,two three sounds cute really but why stick to the cliché?) I would have probably reached somewhere in the hundreds if I was to actually list everything down but hey, there is beauty in shortenedness(excuse my tendency of creating nonexistent words. This brings me to the need of creating what I shall call ” The great Atikonda dictionary ” ( found in all bookstores near you) but I will bring up this important issue in my future endeavours.
My very first list of resolutions ends here. I can say I’m rather proud of myself, aren’t you?
I have had the great privilege of knowing and being related to such amazing and extraordinary human beings. They really make me want to be a better person. They may not necessarily tell me what to do but it is what they do that really gets me questioning whether or not what I’m doing is right or wrong. They bring about this discontent for mediocrity that helps me to be a better me. First there is my mother Dr Nertha Semphere. She is a superwoman really and at times I wonder how she does it all. From her I’ve learnt that with hard work and determination, one is capable of achieving greatness. I’m truly greatful for her and I’m also very proud of all her achievements.
Second is my uncle Reverend Patrick Semphere. He is an amazing writer and has a heart made of gold. He has made a great impact to my life. From the primary days when he would make my cousins and I recite “My God shall supply all my needs according to His riches in glory” everyday as he drove us to school to funny dinner table conversations, I forever remain grateful for his presence in my life.
The third person on my list is my cousin Priscilla. She too is an exceptional writer, artist, composer. She played the older sister role in my preeteen and early teenage years. She is someone I really look up to and her creativity leaves me marvelled really.
Last but not least is my cousin Theodora. She can be difficult at times (like when she refuses her hair oil to the point of hair breakage) but we love her still. She is very mature and at times acts like she is the older one(maybe all the time). I really adore the love she has for God and all that she does for Him.
This is just a few of the people that make me want to be a better Atikonda. I am truly grateful for all the contributions they have made (intentionally and unintentionally). May they continue flourishing in all they do.
Her name is Fazilla.
She wears the traditional head scarf, preventing other men from “appreciating her beauty”. She learns all the dos and donts from a very tender age. She has become so accustomed to these that it has become a way of life for her. In her opinion, it would be utter nonsense to do otherwise. She really has no explanation for the things she does but rather does them because that is what “they expect from her”. Then we have Mary.
She isn’t exactly the regular church attender, misses services and takes part in little church activities. She however has a strong relationship with God and knows the reason why she praises Him. One would say it’s out of her own will or intentional that she does so.
Religion: this can be seen as one’s way of doing things. Or one’s path choice to which they believe is right. It is more or less something that is outwardly portrayed to the masses and made openly known.
Christianity itself is a monotheistic religion based on the teachings of Christ. It is more or less of an abstract word as it is about having a deeper understanding of the word and God himself.
Twas a bright and sunny Monday afternoon (nothing out of the ordinary happened). Okay so basically I’m writing this with no intention whatsoever. I can call it more an exploration as I’m open to where ever my words choose to take me. Can such an approach also be used in day to day living? That sort of thing whereby you have no plan or objective but still end up being content and satisfied. I don’t know if I’m the only person who can’t follow a to do list.
I find myself having lists and lists of unachieved plans. Don’t get me wrong, I do try to get things done. I literally stare at that list and yell “I will conquer you!” But often I find myself being overcome by these creatures called to do lists. So is it possible to live simultaneously? To have no idea where it is you’re headed to? Of course it would be exciting but it is also important to keep in mind that a vision is what drives one to have a clear picture of what it is that has to be done.
So here’s to all the to do lists out there that remain untouched:you will be conquered!
One of the greatest moments in life is when you find out what your purpose on this earth is. It may not necessarily be career based but rather what it is you have to do in order to bring about a positive impact.
People certainly have different capabilities and although it may be easy for some, others may have a harder time figuring it out. Time not only changes people but when properly used, it can lead to growth (the positive kind). So generally, patience is another important aspect that falls under the time factor. Without patience, we may end up taking the wrong path.
With patience and a whole lot of prayer, you will be able to discern which path is the one you ought to take. We are all on this earth for a purpose. There is no such thing as “I was a mistake” or “I’m not supposed to be here”. The very fact that you’re living and breathing means there is something you ought to be doing. Don’t let your mind go idle. Be very sensitive to the world around you. You never know!